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John Meyer
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« Reply #1 on: March 11, 2007, 02:28:10 PM » |
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Yes, depression does hurt; not only emotionaly, but physically. I was diagnosed with severe recurrent depression about 5-6 years ago and was placed on anti-depressants immediately. Seems it had been a part of my life for very long time. The aches and pains %%%%ociated with it are real, but you must not give into that idea.Suicide often seemed the only solution, or alcohol. Alcohol was a big part of my life also for over 25 years; talk about insanity, alcohol is a depressant. I have now been sober for 5 1/2 years, and I am extremely grateful for that. I became a member of Alcoholics Anonymous in October of 2001. After 4+ years of sobriety, working the steps laid out for me, working with a sponsor, and seeing a couselor, I was able to get off the anti-depressants completely. It was not so easy, as I still had the symptoms of depression although mild. My serenity played a big part in my depression. Now I believe it was brought on by my lack of spirituality, or spiritual constipation as my sponsor puts it. I was full of myself, and feeling terribly sorry for me. When I began working and walking with others who had similar feelings as i did, I began to heal. It took me over 4 years to get off of them, and I have now been off them almost 2 years. I still have my "ups and downs", but so does everyone else. It is how we percieve things. Nothing has to be taken care of immediately, there is always time. Time for prayer, guidance from another or time to work things out with what is causing you despair. I found that talking with another person, who can be objective (not emotionaly related to the problem) I was able to get another perspective of the situation, and thereby arriving at a more reasonable solution than of my own will or ideas. It takes time. and definitely alot of practice. Those days when our bodies say "Stay in bed" it is useless to get up, or you hurt too much to move, is when I push myself hard. I get out of bed and perform simple tasks to start, and then progress to other things that need to be done. Sometimes even taking a shower or shaving are a task, but I still do them as subconsiously they make me feel better. It works. Just keep pushing yourself and fight the urges to give in. I longed to just lay in bed many times over the past few years, but deep down I know that would be a horrendous mistake; so I force myself to get up and get moving. Something that works for me, and i hope others can use it too. I find that being active in my life, helps me to stay out of my own mind... John
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