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John Meyer
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« on: March 18, 2007, 10:24:56 AM » |
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I am a compulsive over eater. It really took off when I stopped drinking (cross addiction). I am 5'7" and for many years weighed 160 pounds. After I stopped drinking, I went up to 170. Then about 2 years into sobriety I ballooned up to 207 pounds. I was grossly overweight. I checked with the doctors and they did testing to see why this happened so quickly. It seemed to happen over a month. Then I began working out and watching my diet. Still nothing. I started a new job and it involved strenuous work. I dropped to 195. When I moved back to Iowa I was at 195. I began praying for relief of my weight problem. I turned the results over to God. I prayed daily to keep me in check and help me with this issue and show me the actions I needed to take. Then, as my spritual life began to get better, the weight started dropping off. I realized at my high point that i was no longer eating anything and everything, in excess. I was relieved of the compulsive part and the overeating part. I could stop after I started. That following summer I realized I had lost some weight as I had been tracking it as well as my measurements. I stuck to a diet that was high in protein, had 2 eggs for breakfast daily and drank a fitness water throught out the day. After a year and a half, i was trying on some clothes to attend an AA function. I was already full of gratitude for the way life was going, and somewhat teary eyed. Then the miracle hit me. A shirt that had not fit me for over 4 years fit me again. THen I tried on my suit, it fit as well. I started crying uncontollably, tears of gratitude. I started checking my weight and measurements. I was down to 155 pounds. I had lost 7 inches off my belly, 3-4 off my waist and hips, and at least an inch just about everywhere else. Since then I have crept back up to 160-165 pounds. But the most important thing I learned was that I have an eating disorder.Without God's help much the same as alcoholism I could and can not do it alone. I need him to help me and take control over it. And he did and continues to do so. When my life seems to be not going so well, I eat, where as before I used to drink. And at times when I ate, I would eat to overfull. Donuts, cookies and sweets are my downfall. I really have to watch them. I have to recoil from them like a hot flame as the Big Book tells us. I know that if I don't start eating the sweet things that make me feel better, and I turn to God to feel better, I can stay fit. I can stay healthy, and fill up on healthy things to eat, not to mention that the comfort I am seeking will come to me through God; and it is better. Once again, I can't, God can, if I seek him first.... The twelve steps work on EVERY area of my life. If I follow God and do His work, things happen. John
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